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Which do you like more. My Lighter more happier poems or my darker more sadder poems? 

12 deviants said Sadder dark poems
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Cherry blossoms blooming all around 
Eyes wide with wonderment before you
Standing there with a smile on your face
Thoughts of it racing throughout your mind
Just to wake up in the pouring rain
Vivid images of cherry blossoms blooming
With a sweet smell lingering in the air
Finding a cherry blossom petal on your head

Was it all just a dream?
Dreams of cherry blossoms
Hope you all like it comments are always welcome as well. :) 
Broken hearts and memories
Nightmares that haunts your dreams
Becoming numb and emotionless inside
The demon within wining every game
What you have left is left barren and dead
You see no light when you fall from the edge
Watching all your ambitions fade away before you die
Left broken hearten and left alone in the dark
Memories full of regret that is all you need to know

Can you believe how much a fool I must be
When all I can do is wait for nothing
When the thoughts of you slip right through me
When time seems to have become silent and still
When my heart is no longer beating in the air
When I stare off into the clouds and see you there
Behind a closed cage that is my own hell

To think I could have been happy
To think I could have felt free
To think I could find love in something free
Who was I to say what I can be
A fool is what I am who loves that which cannot be
I deserve to be sad with no hope and no glee
Truly have I become such a pitiful man
A feeling within my heart
Strange how it feels
The void that fills me
Heartless I have become
Drained to my bitter bones
What was once is no more
Laughter and a kind word I can do
Still I feel nothing but the void inside
Feeling no remorse for others
No love to spare for ones who seek it
What little bit's of my self is not mine to keep
Yet here I stand stronger then ever before
Even with this void-less heart of mine
You soon will know what I have become.

This is not a poem, but how I feel deep inside, I lost all that I ever loved. Not a single human I can see above. Below the endless streets below, I call out but no one shows. Ironic is the choices I made. When all I did was ever love you. Calling it an obsession, and calling it a mental problem, I bleed my heart out to you. Going through hell and ropes I would never cross for anyone but you. Ruined friendships, betraying my own sanity to stay with you, and all the same I crumbled down into dust alone and now forever afraid of what may come, I loath the world and the world loath's me, and who am I to judge? Forsaken sands of time as the dark inside swells and my heart finally dies with no flattering feature. For I shall walk in this world alone and I shall be the devil that will bestow nothing but tragedy and make the world woe for me, and yet the world will just keep moving. My heart now slowly beats and my mind broken to a point of no return, I grow cold in my time of need. Soon to push everyone away and seclude myself inside my own soul. Wondering why I always hurt myself, and thinking am I strong enough to rise out of this dreadfulness and find even a glimmer of hope left inside when I see nothing but my own falters in my life. So now just like a child I shall sit in this corner with my hands holding my knees to my chest as I weep. Wishing someone or something would come to take my hand and help me move on this down trotted path of stones. For I stand still in my own our glass of time rotting away as I reside and hide away once again from this world I used to live in.

Again this is not a poem, but just how I am now and forever.


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I suck at Bio's. but i'll put what i think would be important.

So my name is Joshua last name is Smith

I am Part German Italian and Korean

height" 5'8
eye color: Dark brown
hair color: Black
weight: i weight 125-135. i lose and gain weight.

I live in Ohio. not telling anyone where exactly. except i live in the country.
I have my dislikes. not sure of what that would be though.
Like's: allot of things. i guess.

people say i'm nice, and crazy. :D. even though i do not feel that i'm a nice guy. i'm just who i am. :)

Ok. so i has a facebook. do not be shy note me too if you want to know it. and i have skype too. note me for the info if you want to chat. I like to meet new people and make new friends. ^^ Also i just made a account. Ask me anything.

below are people i consider good friends on DA. who talk to and feel like they are friends.

:iconfukurimu: :iconhypermagical: :iconotomen-nick: :iconfirelightprincess: :iconyoichi-masaki: :iconhale-hamasaki: :iconlynnae-madison: :iconremnantdoomblossom:


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CourteousCupcake Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015
Thank you for the favorite. ^^
candyzombielord Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Your welcome. :) 
SweetLiarr Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the watch! >w<
candyzombielord Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Your welcome. Your art looks really awesome. :) keep up the good work.
TomPrante Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you for the watch! :)
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