Who I really want to be

I don't know what I am right now
Feeling so happy and proud of myself
Still even though I know I feel fine
Yet there is still an aching void I can't seem to quench
Just trying to make each with it deep inside
It  breaks me inside knowing we are nothing than slaves of war
I love but am not allowed to be want to be
To sacrifice all of my being for one last time
To end all of this nonsense and to be free
For it is breaking me up inside know I will never be
Who I really want to be.